Last Wednesday my laptop and Kindle were stolen from our
house. Ellie and I were home and Will had just left to go into town for a few
hours. Our day guard was working, but was in the back of the house when the
theft must have happened. We believe the thief must have hopped over the side
of our gate, entered into the open front door, and grabbed the first things he
saw within quick reach. I was in the back of the house and oblivious to what
was happening.
I’m used to having to let go of “stuff”. My family had a
house fire when I was 15 and it was my first introduction to learning to let go
of things and cope with losses of items that are dear to you. Having everything
we left in Mundri stolen was my next big reality check of how quickly things
can be gone. I’ve learned to work through the heartache that comes with having
your things sifted through and stolen. But with each loss, there is usually
something deeper that gets triggered.
I am very bummed that my laptop and Kindle are gone. I use
my laptop daily and it is the only way I keep up with work e-mail and blogs
(did you notice the long delay in blogging recently?). Without it, I get very
behind. However, it is still just “stuff”. In our technological world, most of
us don’t only have one electronic device. I’ve just depending on my phone more
frequently with the loss of the computer. What hurts deeper than the loss of
these objects is the loss of security in our own home. I have been home a lot
with Ellie as she is still so young and we are trying to get her on a good
schedule. Having home feel a little less safe makes me feel even more unsettled
here. We have been keeping our front door locked at all times now so we don’t
have to be concerned about walking to the back of the house and not hearing
what is happening in the front room. The locked door is constant reminder of my
insecurity in my own home.
In all of this, like with any big event, I have to be on
guard. I feel like Satan would love to use this to make me consumed with our
safety at all times and feel chronically unsettled in our new home. He would
love for me to respond to this situation with constant fear and with disgust
towards the people here. However, he does not get the last word. God has
reminded me this week that our only security is in Him. He is our safe place.
He has also reminded me that our calling to a place is not dependent on how
comfortable we feel once we get there. When He calls us, He goes with us. That
doesn’t always mean we are ‘safe’ by the worlds terms. But it does mean that He
is enough for us in whatever circumstance we find ourselves.
Will you join us in prayer? Please pray that Satan would not
use this to make me bitter about being here. In a season where we are still
adjusting and trying to find our footing, this feels like a major set-back.
Please also pray for the heart of whoever took these items. Pray that they
would feel convicted, but more than that, that they would know the love of
Christ and seek God to meet their needs in every way. I pray that we would have the opportunity to show this person grace in person. Our hope would be that the person would confess and we would be able to forgive them in person. However, even if this does not happen in this manner, pray that we would extend grace in our hearts. Even with the items stolen and not in our possession, our hope is that grace would reign in our heartland bitterness would be far from us.
Oh Theresa, how sad. That is a lot to deal with and I'm just sad for you. I'm thankful that the Lord has given you solid truth in this time. But I do also pray that these things are able to be recovered and that you will sense the Lord's great comfort and peace, especially in your home.
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